Tomorrow I will be 14 weeks pregnant. It is amazing how quickly time is passing. Unfortunately it stills seems like an eternity before Ike and I will find out the baby's sex. Everyone keeps asking me if I would rather have a boy or a girl. I always think it is weird when people ask me this question. I always tell them that I would rather not have my heart leaning one way or another. I do not want to be disappointed in any way when we find out exactly what we are having. There are a lot of couples who are unable to have a baby and I should be more than grateful that I am pregnant and am able to have a child-whether it be a boy or a girl.

Having said all of that-I should know for sure what I am having in about 6 weeks. At that point Ike and I can start deciding on a name and I can buy clothes. It will be very exciting. I am also hoping that my mom will have already moved down here by then. It will be great having her here to help me and share with me in this experience.

Now for the big news. Ike has a meeting set with the head guy at his company next Tuesday to discuss Ike taking over management of a store. This is a very big deal and something that we have both been hoping for. Unfortunately it comes at a strange time. If Ike does get offered a store it means that we will probably have to move away from Cleveland. As I have already mentioned-my parents are planning to move down here by the first of next month. If Ike takes this position it will mean that I will have to once again move away from them. If Ike becomes a manager of a store it will hopefully help us out a lot financially and will also give me the ability to quit my present job and get a job that is hopefully not as demanding-or to even stay at home with the baby for awhile. This is what we have both been wanting for a long time, but it is also something that makes me feel very nervous. I like where I am living, I am comfortable here and the thought of me having to pack up everything and start all over again is very stressful. I am actually trying not to think a lot about it until after the meeting happens and we know more information. Basically, the next part of our lives are based on what is said at that meeting.....

The Beginning

I'm starting fresh with this blog. I first started it a couple of years ago and my writings quickly deminished. Now, I have a baby on the way and have been thinking a lot about how important it is to keep a record of me and my husbands life. Hopefully someday our Baby will want to look back on this time and want to know more about what me and my husband's life was like before they arrived. It will also be a good way for me to let out a lot of the emotions I have been feeling lately.


Today started out as an emotional roller coaster ride, but eventually turned into a beautiful afternoon spent with my husband. Without his love and devotion I do not know how I would be able to steady my uncontrollable emotions. After spilling out my burdened heart to him he took me out for frozen yogurt and a drive to the river. Something about being at the river, hearing the water flowing down the rocks, the smells, and all of the beauty brings an amazing peace to my soul. All of it made the tears that I cried only hours before seem silly. How could I claim to be so unhappy when I have everything I always dreamed of. I have a husband who loves me unconditionally, a home, a cute little dog who likes to curl up in my lap, and a little baby on the way. Nothing else should matter. This is something that I need to continually reflect on throughout the next days, months, and even years.