Well-it finally happened. I had my baby and he is absolutely beautiful. It has now been over a week since little Owen entered into the world and the whole event is still a little unbelievable. It was a beautiful experience that has thrown my emotions into whirlwind. My emotions are constantly sneaking up on me and then having their way with me. At first I was very emotional about no longer having the little guy living inside of me. I was reminiscent of everything we had gone through together in the 9 long months he spent inside of me. Next I was emotional about trying to breastfeed and realizing it was not the thing for me. Now I am emotional about how quickly my few weeks home with my baby are disappearing. He is just a little over a week old, but already so many little moments are slipping by into the past and he is getting older and starting to change. I try to tell myself constantly that I cannot dwell on all of these things. I need to live in the moment. Realizing how precious these moments are right now is helping me to take it a day at a time. This is not easy for me. I wish there was some way that I could pause all of my physical needs in order to fulfill all of my emotional needs. Unfortunately I have to eat, I have to sleep, and I have to continue on with life. The world has not stopped for me.

Throughout my whole pregnancy there was no shortage of advice from every mother I encountered along the way. Still, none of the advice I was given could have ever prepared me for how much becoming a parent would change my entire life. I no longer view the world the same way. It's no longer about me-it's about my beautiful baby boy. It's about being a mother and being only one part of a family. It is very intense. I have come to realize that this is just a new turn on the journey of life. I am excited, nervous, scared, and ready for change all at the same time. I am extremely lucky to have such a wonderful husband and a beautiful baby to walk beside me on this journey.